It just hit me (exactly 2 days ago) that this time next month I'll be a college graduate.
Cue influx of "It seems like it was just yesterday when" comments. I don't blame any of you for thinking about it, it's all I've been thinking about lately as well. Mainly, I've thought about how much I've changed from when I was in high school to now.
I've gone to a handful of my former classmates' Facebook pages to send notes of congratulations whenever I see pictures of them trying on their graduation robes. "It feels like it was just yesterday" when we were proceeding into the auditorium for our high school graduation. With the classmates I've been with since Pre-K, Kindergarten, elementary school, or who I've even spent just one short school year with, I remember thinking, "2010 is never going to happen", "it's never going to get here. And after that it was, "2014 is never going to get here" but it's here and in less than a month, we're all going to be taking our first step into the real world.
It's just kind of weird to not be doing it with my high school classmates. I had moved on up through school years with them at one school for longer than I have here. But, in that regards, it's a good thing I have my sisters with me. It's another milestone for all of us.
I like to think that I have grown in my four years in college. I'm more confident with my music and just with myself in general, I feel like I've learned how to be a better friend, and to know when to pick and choose my battles. Having the comfort of home with my sisters here have been great, but while we've all changed individually, I think we've also helped to not make each other change ourselves completely. And maybe change isn't the right word, maybe the word I'm looking for is "growth."
But, we have to keep somethings about ourselves the same. We still think any stupid comment we make at midnight is the funniest thing in the world at the time, we still play the same video games we have been for years (some we still take waaaaayyy too seriously), we act childish and stupid from time to time, and we still have that one moment every few months when we sit back and think about all the stuff we did when we were kids, what annoyed us, what made us mad, and end up in fits of laughter by the end.
With all these 10 year or 20 year anniversary of songs, tv shows, and movies, and even reunions after that long, it makes me stop and think, "there's no way that came out [insert amount of time here] ago." Because of that, I've gone back to watch my favorite TV shows and movies when I was a kid, as long as I can watch them through hulu or amazon or Netflix.
It just instantly takes me back for a brief moment to how i was when I was a kid. There was no way I would've imagined myself where I am now at that age. But, everything's shaped me to be a better person. Times were tough, I've lost friends along the way (and kept some amazing ones), I've made stupid mistakes, but I've made it through.
Everything will be ok.
I'm just going to leave you with a song I've had on repeat for a while. :)