It just hit me (exactly 2 days ago) that this time next month I'll be a college graduate.
Cue influx of "It seems like it was just yesterday when" comments. I don't blame any of you for thinking about it, it's all I've been thinking about lately as well. Mainly, I've thought about how much I've changed from when I was in high school to now.
I've gone to a handful of my former classmates' Facebook pages to send notes of congratulations whenever I see pictures of them trying on their graduation robes. "It feels like it was just yesterday" when we were proceeding into the auditorium for our high school graduation. With the classmates I've been with since Pre-K, Kindergarten, elementary school, or who I've even spent just one short school year with, I remember thinking, "2010 is never going to happen", "it's never going to get here. And after that it was, "2014 is never going to get here" but it's here and in less than a month, we're all going to be taking our first step into the real world.
It's just kind of weird to not be doing it with my high school classmates. I had moved on up through school years with them at one school for longer than I have here. But, in that regards, it's a good thing I have my sisters with me. It's another milestone for all of us.
I like to think that I have grown in my four years in college. I'm more confident with my music and just with myself in general, I feel like I've learned how to be a better friend, and to know when to pick and choose my battles. Having the comfort of home with my sisters here have been great, but while we've all changed individually, I think we've also helped to not make each other change ourselves completely. And maybe change isn't the right word, maybe the word I'm looking for is "growth."
But, we have to keep somethings about ourselves the same. We still think any stupid comment we make at midnight is the funniest thing in the world at the time, we still play the same video games we have been for years (some we still take waaaaayyy too seriously), we act childish and stupid from time to time, and we still have that one moment every few months when we sit back and think about all the stuff we did when we were kids, what annoyed us, what made us mad, and end up in fits of laughter by the end.
With all these 10 year or 20 year anniversary of songs, tv shows, and movies, and even reunions after that long, it makes me stop and think, "there's no way that came out [insert amount of time here] ago." Because of that, I've gone back to watch my favorite TV shows and movies when I was a kid, as long as I can watch them through hulu or amazon or Netflix.
It just instantly takes me back for a brief moment to how i was when I was a kid. There was no way I would've imagined myself where I am now at that age. But, everything's shaped me to be a better person. Times were tough, I've lost friends along the way (and kept some amazing ones), I've made stupid mistakes, but I've made it through.
Everything will be ok.
I'm just going to leave you with a song I've had on repeat for a while. :)
March has come and gone with not a lot happening. Apart from a lot of snow. I'm tired of snow and i'm tired of rain, despite the latter not being around that often. And i don't want it to be. I love shorts and flip flop weather and it really has been a long wait to finally get steady warm weather.
First week back after break and it's been pretty good. Nothing exciting has happened (apart from my classes on Thursday and Friday being cancelled, yayyy), but I'd rather not be too bogged down. I'm allowed to play one of my favorite songs from a video game in my piano class which is pretty cool.
The class is going ok. It's still pretty hard for me as the piano really isn't something I ever thought I'd play nor did I ever want to play. It's just never been an instrument that really spoke to me. There are all those specific things you have to do with it; sit a specific distance away from the piano, wrists have to be up, fingers curled, you have to use pecific fingers for specific notes, and on, and on.
I like the unpredictability of playing the drums. I like feeling of the drumsticks between my fingers and how you can play one song in different ways. Sure, you can transpose in piano, and do variations, but I feel like you're still essentially playing the same thing over and over again.
Nothing against piano players. I have to give you props for what you can do. I've only gotten a glimpse of just how much work goes into being an exceptional piano player. Just doing transpositions and learning how to play with two hands at one time, reading off a lead sheet, and and and. I just get incredibly frustrated with it at times. But, I'm still forging on.
I can see the school year coming to an end, but I don't know how I feel about it. I just keep taking things one day at a time. Plus, I have my sisters around, so there's never really any time for me stress in between our fits of laughter.
April Fools' Day was pretty uneventful. That's normally a day I don't really take much stock in. On the one hand, I take everything with a grain of salt that day apart from just refusing to believe anything people say at times. On the other, I can never really think of great pranks to do.
When I was younger, I used to take worms and stick them in Pringles cans, never knowing that salt actually hurt and/or killed them. And then in sometimes, I'd swap out the cream for toothpaste, but that always back fired because people could smell the mint.
But, the one prank I love and don't care if it is real or not is how Google Maps has this Pokemon Master game going on. A fake job position goes to whoever can catch all the Pokemon in the world. From what I've seen it's a pretty cool little app; I haven't figured out how to work it, yet. It'll probably be much easier to catch the Pokemon from that than in the actual games.
I hope you're all doing well.