With 2014 about to be over, I have taken the time to look back at the list of plans/goals for the year. It also had me go back and look at my various journal entries. Even though the past few months have been hard and very trying, I have had a lot of good and positive things occur in 2014.
Not only will it be five years since I graduated high school and one year (in May) when I graduated college, but i have a strong feeling that things will really look up next year. I do have plans for some changes I want to make and the number one thing is, the use of my phone.
Let me clarify, I do use my phone as an alarm clock, to check my email, browse a few websites I like, and post a few photos to my instagram account. Otherwise, I've noticed I don't touch my phone as much as some of my friends do. Since Facebook messenger came around I don't get as may texts as I used to. This in turn reminds me that I still love handwriting letters. I would really like to get back into that.
When I'm out with my friends the only time I really use my phone is to take a picture of something, either for instagram or of clothes i like to remind myself to go back and get it or find it online, to check the time, or to see who texted me. Usually if its a family member I'll see what they have said and decide if its important enough to respond right away. If I get a text from another friend I ignore it until later because I'm already out with someone and they deserve my attention.
That being said, I need to stop being so passive when something bothers me. That is a big change I really need to make next year. I've said in the past I don't like passive aggressive people but I've acted the same way. I recently let out what has been bothering me or has been building up inside for about the past year. One thing I have always been passive about is the use of phones while out with friends. There have been times in the past when I'm out with friends I haven't seen in a while and they're on their phones for a majority of the time and I just sit there stewing in my silent anger. When people are on their phones while hanging out it makes me question if the person or the thing on the phone is more important than the one they're sitting across from. It makes me feel like I'm not important and that I'm wasting my time.
I do believe a lot of great and positive things will come in 2015. I plan making a list again, like last year (well technically this year), of things i want to do. Somewhat of a bucket list, if you will. With the way 2014 is coming to a close, i sure do hope the positive feeling continues on into the New Year.
Overall, i just hope for changes in the better both in my life and personally for me. I need to re-evalute and remember how i taught myself to become a positive person to regain that aspect of my life. The holidays sure do help because it brings in perspective and reminds me that its about giving and not getting. I feel like I give a lot of myself to others and there are times where it backfires but I have to focus on the good results than the bad ones.
In 2015, i will finally make a wish box or a memory box. With every good thing that comes true or every wish you make you put it in a box, and re-read all of them on New Years Eve of 2015.
So with that, here's to making 2015 a great year with new adventures, moments, and memories. I'm off to start my 2015 bucket list. What will you all put on yours?
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you." - Walt Whitman